Cont. Fertility

So I know I did not complete the last post but most of you that are reading this already know what is going on anyways, but here is the rest of my journey!
....I finally decided to make an appointment with Dr Foulk our infertility specialist again, in May. I had it scheduled two and a half weeks before the actual appointment and lets just say it was the longest two weeks ever! I could not wait for this appointment I just had a good feeling about it and wanted to get things moving. When the day finally came Devin and I went together and had a consult with the Doctor. By the end of the visit we all decided that In-Virto was what we were going to do, I could not believe it was real! I was finally doing something that was going to give me a 70% chance of getting pregnant instead of the usual 20%.
So I HATE lots of attention on me and still have a little fear of telling people of big exciting decisions I am making in my life in fear they will bring me down and not lift me up. So after we found out I knew I would be going to work and I would have to tell all of them what was going on, because they would ask. So since I already had to talk to everyone at work I made Devin call his family and mine and tell them the good news.
I am a summer girl for sure I LOVE the heat, being outside, and getting a good tan. This is the first summer in my life that I have wanted it to fly by because hopefully by the end of the summer I will have a baby in my tummy:) That is all I have wanted, it has been a goal I have had in my life since I was a kid. I never had a career in mind when people would ask what I wanted to do when I grew up but I knew that I wanted to be a Mom.
After we decided we were going to do it we knew we would have to get a huge loan and do something to earn some extra cash. I have a really really hard time accepting/asking people for help!!! My mother-in-law came up with the idea to do a garage sale. We thought it was a great idea to earn a couple hundred dollars from selling items that we don't use or could live without. As we made this decision people just started finding out and donating items because let me honest I would rather pay for the procedure the rest of my life instead of asking people to help me. We are both so blessed to work with amazing people who really did help us out a lot with donating items and also many of them came out and bought stuff. We held a garage sale in Orem and also Spanish Fork. Our wonderful families let us have the garage sales at their homes, made treats, bread, or blankets for the sale. We made more between our two garage sales then we ever thought possible by doing a garage sale. Things are working out better then we could ever imagine.
So many things have happened that have made us both know for a fact that this is the direction we are suppose to go in our life at this time. We are both understanding the blessing my Dad gave me before my last insemination. So whether we get pregnant or not we are suppose to go through this process for a purpose. I have gained a much stronger love for many of the people around me, not that I did not already have a love for them, it has just become stronger. I also have more of a desire to serve those around me. I feel so blessed for the things people have done for me during this hard time, it just makes me want to serve and help others in their trials. I also feel like I have learned and relearned patients through these 4 years. One last thing I felt that I am being taught is to accept help from others!! I still have a really hard time with this and I don't know if I could ever feel ok about it but at least I am learning to accept it.